Under a heat-blasted blue sky on my morning ravine walk, I hear a clap of thunder.
The sound arrives like an invitation to write birthday wishes to my darling daughter who brings me joy — always.
I’ve chosen my words advisedly, for the verb “to astonish” is rooted in the Latin phrase ex tonare from ex “out” + tonare “to thunder”.
To astonish is to render someone thunderstruck.
You astonish me. I celebrate your clarity and questing, your determination and resilience, your spirited intelligence, your insight and beauty, your wit, your thoughtful kindness and care. - ❤️ -
My often privileged life is long enough to have had many ups and downs over almost seventy years including navigating the unevenly distributed challenges of this global pandemic.
You are the highlight of my life well-lived.
I am grateful for the gifts of adoption, for the lifetime of love that ties us together.
Adoption means journeys of unsettling relations. The time lost between places.
I remain humbled by the sacrifice of your first mother and family.
Adoption means love refracted within a space, the dailyness of our home. And now, at a distance, maternal and filial love anchor us in a sea of conversation.
Last night in a prairie city at latitude 53, the Rocky Mountains between us, I made you a dinner in a garden full of blooms. I celebrate you in solitude as I chop and roast the peppers and leeks and potatoes and carrots and beans and broccoli and garlic and ginger and chilli and sesame oil and home-grown lemon grass and coriander and parsley and thyme. I know you would appreciate my care.
In your absence, I await the rise of a waning full moon. And drink a glass of Luna Argento Prosecco left for me the other night by friends.
Luna Argento the silver moon the loony moon that cycles through to change to slip into night and rise to fall towards the light of this new day. The moon waxes and waves — everything changes but love remains.
The mother in me has encouraged you to explore the world with my blessings (and a measure of lingering narcissistic regret)... you’ve flown the coop and skipped town yet you remain here — in my heart — a bird out of the blue perched on a palm — lend me a hand to fly.
And speaking of flying….
As the panemonium of rain and thunder in this massive August evening storm rises, thunderstruck, I think about some marvelous advice that lasts a lifetime.
I send this to you, dear daughter, with love…